I can’t believe two years have gone by. It’s bittersweet. She’s vivacious, gorgeous, fearless, sassy, and she is a teacher. Yes, I said teacher. This little girl has taught me so much in her two years of life on this earth. The thought of having a daughter scared me to death, especially after two boys. I wasn’t prepared for the drama and the girly little things I thought were so annoying. I had two boys that melted my heart and were both affectionate and loving. I didn’t know it could be any different; but it is. My bond with her something that took me by surprise. I spent my pregnancy with her in fearful anticipation, realizing how fragile life was after losing her older brother. I was aware of every move she made in my womb. I focused on her while she was still and lost my breath several times as memories of loss and life came back to my mind. She showed me the meaning in the scripture – Isaiah 61:3 “and provide for those who grieve in Zion– to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.” From your greatest despair comes your greatest joy. I didn’t believe that. When you look around and you see the shattered pieces of your heart and dreams and life it’s very easy to get lost in it. I had two beautiful boys and my soulmate by my side but I still felt broken. I believe your heart adds layers… it’s not if you’re a family of five that each member has 1/4 th of your heart… no… Each member has your whole heart and they are all layered on top of each other. They blend together to form the perfect picture of your life. (see what I did there? lol). Wren brought more than just love and fulfillment – she brought restoration and healing. I know the Lord brought her to us, and I am not saying I am glorifying her over Him. I know my source and I know it is Him. I see Him in her smile. I hear Him in her laughter. I feel His love for me and my family through her life. When everything felt lost and broken He sent her to show us the way back. So that is why she is my teacher. I could go on, but I find myself unable to articulate all that is in my mind and heart. So I will just leave this post with the Happiest of Birthday wishes to this angel. My curly haired, hazel eyed, sassy two year old. I love you inexplicably. XOXO